Waiting

I´m waiting for it to let up, to be pardoned and given a second chance. It´s been a hard year that has come to an end and now all that´s left to do is move on. I want to pour myself into my work, make an album that I can be satisfied with. I feel my high expectations being pulled down to a more human level and it´s a good thing. Patrik Andersson is going to play guitar and Fredrik Hermansson is going to play piano, being a fan of them both I´m looking forward to working with them! It feels good to involve other people now and get some fresh ideas on the album. Making an album is not the easiest thing for me, although I´m right where I want to be I´m constantly on my toes, I never get comfortable and although that´s a good thing it also creates insecurities. Am I good enough? Will anyone like what I´m doing? The awareness of the inevitable need to be affirmed is awoken and it is like a monster eating away on my brain. There´s not much I can do about that, it is a part of it all and the sooner I can make peace with my monster the sooner we can learn how to work together. A good friend of mine said to me “In the process of changing remember that what you want to change helps you in certain situations, learn to accept yourself as you are and you´ll know when to back off or when move ahead. I am what I am and I´m trying to understand myself.

January 6, 2009 | Filed in: Uncategorized | No comments